Today is the 11th July 2009 . I've been reading XiaXue's blog recently, and i can't help but agree with her in many aspects . She once twitterred something like she'd quit reading a blog if the first three entries are sad and emotional . I think i would too . So, i guess i wouldn't blog even two in a row .

Anyway, more photos . No idea why but recently i wanna take more photos, might as well blog about it . =) .

Last class on Friday and the clique and i was waiting for the classroom to be vacated when we saw many drivers and their parking skills, so i told myself i wanna learn my parking with all my attention and energy .

Just look at the photo below and see how many cars are parked slant !

Top right hand corner : Pink swift and silver wish is slant .

Bottom right corner : Sunny .

Bottom middle : Mazda 3 and impreza .

I hope i can master parking .

Next up . Class started with a pictionary game and we were split into two groups . First group ( my group ) named ourselves 'smart alec's' and the other cheeky group name themselves 'megan fox's body' . So our tutor laughed and tried to draw an hour glass next to their name .

First up to draw is Nathan . His word is 'agent' and he tried to draw something like what you saw in the picture .

Than after some turns, Amanda got 'ultra vires' and she drew something like this . Lol .

It's all for company law by the way . And i was told i failed company law paper and had to take the re-test if i wanna . Hmm . I'm numb to it . And when i thought i'll fail my FACC, i got a just pass . So it's even now . =)

Yeah, so that's it for today . Going clubbing tonight so i'm gonna finish my GBE presentation . =) . Au voir .

Today is the 9th July 2009 . Long day at school, but ! Always a but huh, but something interesting happened .

Food stall at Singapore Polytechnic School of Business Foodcourt 6 on fire . Lol . I was sitting right in front, just enough to take the photo below, well, i was guilty i didn't help, but the fire wasn't big so i thought i'll just watch and hope it doesn't blast and disfigure me . While the clique and me was watching the 'show', we notice some funny stuffs . Okay, if you can't see the fire, it's actually where the white arrow is pointing, and i made a yellow circle because as you can see, people are trying to deal with a fire and they're telling jokes laughing . How bad !

Then Khng turned and looked and she burst out laughing because there's a couple standing right in front of the stall hugging each other while the fire is going on . Haha ! So i replied her they're just watching fireworks .

So, yeah, the fire went off after that of course, else i wouldn't be here typing .

And some random pictures i took today because, well, yeah, class was boring . But it wasn't just me, so did Shirley and Nathan because they were playing chopsticks when they were sitting on the first row in class . LOL . Bad students !

Notice what was on the middle of the book in front of Shirley ? Looks like a mini hot dog bun doesn't it . Haha . It is a hot dog bun actually, but a fake .

Because it's just a thumb drive after all .

Yeah, when you're hungry could just break it into half and share . Alright, gotta shower now . Au voir .

Today is the 8th July 2009 .

I got this sudden gush to learn Spanish . Yeah .

And i feel like going shopping tonight . Should i go ? I wanna go alone . Because i know no one wanna do late tonight .

Sigh . Whatever .

I don't know if this is whatever shit mental problem, but whenever i feel angry or very fed-up, or for most of the time, not allowed to do what i wanna do, i starve myself to express my unhappiness .

I used to say out all the things that i dislike or am angry with, but soon i realise that my words made impact on some people and 80% of the times, breaks out into disagreement and quarrelling . So i resort to keeping quiet about what i'm angry with, and stop eating for a long time until i find that i'm going very weak . Because i can really find no other ways to blow my anger on .

I just don't understand why men can't see through 80% of what women wants .

Today is the 3rd July 2009 . Even though all those tests were way over, somehow, i don't seem as free as i thought i'd be .

I do what i was told to do, i do what the flow does, and i even got nothing much to think about in my head, i switched on my laptop and wonder which web do i go next . Literally, i have to think hard to get my days passed despite my tests are over . Perhaps, i'm too bored . Things that i like to do, i wanna do, i'll just have to hide it away because i can't do it . What i'm left to do right now, is to complete my studies and go to work .

I miss walking alone at 3am . Or is it the old memories days that i miss ?

Today is the 1st July 2009 - Singapore Armed Forces Day . Happy SAF day, my dear, and happy anniversary for us being together . But despite that, we can't kinda celebrate it because he's busy with his day and i'm busy with exams .

3 down, 2 more to go, and after tomorrow 5pm i shall be happy again . Wish me luck .

More redbull and off to revision . Au voir .

Today is the 25th June 2009 .

I've wasted my day . Doing nothing facing the screen .

Lethargic . Or rather been emotional today .

Few days ago, i went to OPPS! website and just happen to struck me why wouldn't they hold the freshmen party at St. James . So i went to send a mail .

From: Chantel Smith <ann_tay03@hotmail.com>
Date: 2009/6/22
Subject: just askin
To: fizh@weareoops.com


any chances next school reopen party will be at st james ?

And i got a reply today from the lecturer .

Hi Chantel

We have not decided where to hold the Freshmen party next year but we will take into account that you would like to have it at St James. Any other suggestions?

cheers
fairuz

Fairuz S A Rahman
Lecturer
School of Communication, Arts and Social Sciences
Singapore Polytechnic

So i replied back :

great . because the floor is big at powerhouse and the audio sure makes it hip . other suggestions....hmmm...try and make it on a day where there's no school the next day . zouk this year is great but too bad on a thurs .

opps rock actually .

so rock on .

rgds,
devil

Surprisingly, i got an almost immediate reply .

Hi Chantel

Thanks for the suggestion. We would love to make it when there's no school for the next day, unfortunately that means it's eiher a friday or saturday and clubs don't allow us to have private events then as it is their money making day. We will however try!

Thanks for your compliment for Oops!

Are you called Chantel and can I check what school you're from?

Perhaps you'll like to join us an organise events! Let me know.

cheers
fairuz

And, i gave it another shot .

Money making day ... i get it . Try for powerhouse...it's a magnet to lotsa teen like us . Yeah, i'm Chantel...from Business school .

Well, if i join the team i wouldn't be able to enjoy the party, would i ?

What's the benefit of joining the team ?

rgds,

clubber

And another reply .

Hahaha yeah we actually were gonna have it at Powerhouse the first time, but we pulled out at the last minute because of problems with powers that be.

You can enjoy the party from a different angle because you are organising it!

CCA points, meeting lotsa cool sponsors, people, organising cool events and be around cool Oops! team.

cheers
fairuz

Kinda get the fun e-mailing lecturer with different sign off names . =) . Hmm, haven't got a reply yet . Will update when he does . LOL . Am i being naughty ?

Today is the 24th June 2009 .

I really don't know why men can be so stupid at times . . . or is it just me being over sensitive ? Men . M E N . They like to control their women, but hate to be controlled . They want their woman to stop talking to other men, stop hanging with other men, stop flirting with any man and only only go out with him, even if their woman goes out with girlfriends she can't go pubs or clubs because once they do, he gets upset or angry . M E N . They want their women to tell them where she goes, who she goes with, what they do, what time they end, bla bla bla and every single thing .

Just one thing to remind you M E N before i continue, we ain't your dogs .

So what happens if you realize when M E N have their own time ? Well, if we women don't ask, they ain't gonna tell . So when you ask, yeah, they tell . They tell you where they are, but don't tell you where they're heading next or what they are gonna do next . Basically, they don't tell you ever what exactly is going on as clear as we 'report' to them . And who are they hanging out with ? Oh the answer is always the same isn't it ? They'll say oh just some colleagues . No names who they are or whatsoever .

I just wanna say i'm so sick of this, so sick of men sometimes i'm sure i can live without one . This controlling issue . . . i've seen it everywhere, around me, my friends, and yeah i think it applies to me too .

I tell you everything willingly and as when you asked because i trust you that you'll do the same to me . But it seems that you've broke this trust i gave you .

Today is the 22nd June 2009 . Found that i'm having lotsa photographs in my phone waiting to be uploaded and blogged about so i thought i'd better get it done before it's gone for too long .

Okay, first up . This isn't from my phone, this is a picture i got from FaceBook . Her FaceBook nickname is 'Elv Fulymonster Evon' and she has been trying to add me as her friend for more than 5 times . I don't know who she is, neither did she tried to tell me, all i know is she is getting irritating . First time ever that someone tried to add me for more than 5 times, if no one knows her, i'm gonna block her on her next attempt . Sorry, but i only approve of people i know .

So i was home on the 19th June, hoping that i'll know where to go myself because i wasn't too pleasant to be at home counting down to my birthday, but i have to say in the end i stayed home . Kinda sad, but to the least i have the internet to kill the time . Just when i was surfing the net, my sister broke my brother's table because she was . . . *cough* too heavy . LOL . The wooden table is an extra piece of wood attached to the main table via 2 metal hinge AND 2 metal rods for support . She was leaning on the extra table almost entirely that she broke the wooden edge and the whole piece of wood crashed on the floor .

Now do you see the 2 metal rod that is supposedly there for support to the table ?

From my view, it's clearer than ever . LOL .

Well, anyway, my superb Dad got the table fixed back . Luckily, or else my brother's gonna study on the floor . Maybe, haha .

More coming up, photographs of Ethan when he came to out house . I only took a few because my camera is very slow . So yeah, here's when he's taking a shower in a pail and playing with water .

And he knows how to run already . Fyi, he just had his one year old celebration this June too . Too bad i can't have mine . But i got lotsa happy birthday wishings from my friends and families . I wanna thank all these people for making my day . Especially Khng, Shirley and Nathan . They specially did videos on MSN so funny i burst out laughing . They were doing crazy stuffs just for me and despite other people laughing they still went on . Yeah, so thank you guys so much . =) . Presents this year ? Well, i must say although the presents are very little or too few, this is my first year receiving bouquets of flowers . Jason Huang sent me my first present this year via internet order of blue roses because he's in China working for a month . So i wanna thank him for the first present at 11.33pm that night and being the first man to give me flowers in a bouquet . So, thank you, Jason Huang .

So then i thought my dear is at rehearsal at Marina platform till late and i wouldn't expect anything from him, but a text message came saying he has to go back to his camp for urgent issues to settle sent my mood down even further . Yeah, he did went back to camp, but he came home with a bouquet of red roses, kept in his bag . And he only gave it to be when he was in my room, with a necklace . End of presents . Oh, and thank you, my dear . =)

I love the roses, but when it comes to putting in a vase, i'm beginning to hate roses . Because they have thorns so sharp i thought i rather have no flowers than to roses . But anyway, they're all in vases .

And guess what, i've got my passport renewed . Together with dear's because he's old passport is gonna expired within 6 months and he can't enter Malaysia, so we've decided to get new ones . It costed me $70 . Here's my brand new passport .

So just in case you haven't seen my old passport's photo, here's it . Looked very noob, and everytime i went through customs, i always always took longer time than others because the me now looked so different !

Worse is the other photo had a Vanda Miss Joaquim on one corner of my head and i looked as if i'm from Hawaii .

My first stamp, first oversea trip, to China . I haven't went Sentosa, so don't talk about Malaysia then .

And stamps from Hong Kong with my beloved . =)

The rest is from Malaysia which i thought many of you guys have already seen . And here's my new photo in my new passport . =D . Much better isn't it ?

Here's my beloved old passport photo . Heehee .

To Hong Kong not with me .

China .

Australia, i think he went Brisbane . Yeah, almost all trips were for career purposes .

And the current photo . *cough cough* Handsome guy .

Sigh, yeah and this is it . Exams are coming up next week, so i better get my ass off for revision . Good luck to all people having exams, and yeah, hope it ends soon .

I kept on thinking i'll be fine when you leave me for Brunei for a year . However, i can't help but grit my teeth so hard that so i wouldn't tear whenever it is . I think of it almost everyday, almost anywhere when i'm alone . I wonder, during that one year, who do i go to when i'm sad, who do i hug to sleep, who would kiss me on the forehead and say goodnight, who's gonna hold my hands when im cold, who would kiss my hand and what do i do when i really miss you ? My instinct tells i'll fall . May this test of relationship makes us stronger, proves everyone we're true .

Because my instinct also says i'll cry everyday .

Today is the 19th June 2009 . My last day being 18 years old . Honestly i feel like dying, so i could stop my age growth and be 18 forever, but apparently i can't, because in reality, it's considered a stupid act .

I thought i could spend this last day with some one special, you know, and count down to being 19 years old . But then again, career is more important . I know .

Whatever, being unable to celebrate my birthday because of some religious belief is bad enough i thought, so things got worse . Maybe i shouldn't even be looking forward to birthdays anymore, as i always have been .

Maybe i'm childish in people's eyes, so be it .

He's right, when you realize your love life is hanging by thread, it's time for a promotion, then should you realize life don't go up always, there are, too, downs .

Fuck 19th birthday . I rather be alone .

Today is the 15th June 2009 . Another day another week another one year older for me in what ? 5 days . Sigh, one year older . I think 18 years old is the best age in your life, because you don't have your full freedom that's why it's only thrilling when you dare yourself to do the things you aren't allowed . And parents always think kids are still young and they still care . So, you got your families' care, partial freedom, and you can enter clubs, drink smoke, almost like an adult . But not one yet .

Anyway, my parents had a meet up with dear's parents last saturday night for a little chat . So, i went to clean my nails from the previous weird ugly blue nails and wanted to paint something light and i saw my right pinkie nail had a crack after months of growing it . It was longer than 1cm already and it broke . Hmm, try harder next time .

We went down to kopitiam for dinner and boy, the place is so filty . Cigarette butts everywhere and half the floor is wet with unclean water . Try walking around in slippers and your slippers will slap up the water to your legs . Argh, i'm never going out there to eat unless i really have to . Oh and a huge fly with body of at least 1cm big fly aimlessly and smack on my face at the left cheek, then fell onto my lap . Zzz, lucky i was quick enough to push it to the floor before it flies off again .

After the dinner, i went to meet Nathan, Seto and gang for a night club at Rebel . Went in from Zirca and was as usual, shivering like mad . Two drink coupon at the bar with lotsa people cut queueing, and i couldn't get martell green tea with 2 coupons, only whisky which was totally not my kind of drink . So i drank 2 sips and put it back at the bar . Then head to Rebel with them . SQUEEZING TIME ! So many people but we managed to squeeze into the dance floor cage close to the DJ . But something was missing for me . . . highness ! 2 sips of whisky is not enough to get me high, so i danced for a while, sweat in the club for the first time, then we went out to Lunar for another drink . I got vodka and martell, Nathan and the rest got tequila pop and vodka .

Head back to Zirca for a while, then Rebel . Was dancing and i accidentally hooked up 2 glues . Not real glues, i meant men who sticks around like a sore thumb . One was trying to touch me and hold my waist, so i kept on moving around and solved that problem . And because Nathan and gang was just beside me like North, South, East and West, the other glue tried to cut in between and dance with me . LOL . So i was watching and pull whoever is closer to me to block him away . Haha ! Sorry, i don't dance with people who is shorter than me, and wear spectacles to club . =) . Try harder next time . So, the two glues was sticking and sticking until around 4am plus, we decided to go because Nathan and the rest was tired of dancing . Bones aching for the 2 hours of dance, i got it too, but used to it long ago . Then it was bye bye clubbing, and hello prata, then home to sleep of course .

Hmm, when's the next time again . I wonder . Blog again soon . Au voir .

Today is the 12th June 2009 . Been at home doing nothing but starring at the computer screen .

Boring ~

Why can't you see who's worth your time and effort ? Why are you always giving in at the very end ?

In this way i realize you're not very fierce, you're just being forceful at times . You're like the dragon with a big big fire blow, but too sad to know your fire don't last long .

I thought your leg is already stepping on your own pride .

You remind me of the you when you were dating Mark, blinded by love . No common sense, no decision you made was sensual .

You kinda made me despise you .

People around you are giving up on you .

Today is the 10th June 2009 . 10 more days to turning 19 years old, should i be happy about it ? Maybe i should, because it's my birthday, but i can't celebrate it, religious purpose . Sounds a bit crappy, but i'm considered superstitious after all .

Anyway, i grew sick of looking myself in the mirror finding black hair roots on my head so i decided to dye my hair again . I really love my brown hair, but i've dyed the roots brown so many times i'm kinda irritated by it already, so i turn back to dark colour .

This is before, with the black roots still on . . . my head .

And this is after i dyed my hair . I used 2 boxes of Loreal Feria 3D - Deep Current colour . And of course the labor is done by my Mom, because she always is so professional about it . Haha .

Well, i guess i might not need any hair dye anymore unless something struck me to dye brown again . I don't hope that happens, because it wastes my money .

I'm very bored at home these days because the school is having 3 week break and my dear is always on NDP rehearsals, so i decided to take a photo of his rehearsal uniform . Trust me, it looks nice but accessories have to be aligned so perfectly i find them so tedious .

Bla bla bla, and so my Mom came in to help him with the perfect alignment . He look smart with burmudas . =) . LOL .

And some photos taken when we were about to turn in last night . Just bored .

Oh, so emotional . =( . Haha .

And me trying to avoid the flash . =) .

Hurtful, but in any other way this is better than letting it go 5 years down the road . He's not the one, so let go and hope for a better man .

Today is the 8th June 2009 . Well, if you're in my list of contacts on MSN, you definitely should read my nick . And that's exactly what i am gonna talk about right here right now .

I may not have to right to reprimand you, i also might not have to authority to do so, but whatever it is i am doing i do not give a damn shit about you because this involve my blood sister, about something very bad it seems .

My target is clear and it's clear as crystal, if i ever hurt your feelings after you read this, this is because you deserve it . Oh and trust me, you totally deserve it .

Ever wonder why men are always perceived to be stonger than women ? That's because men has more capabilities than women in terms of strength, and in general, they are more readily focus on issues presented to them . This reason why men should pay for bills, pay for these and that when a date is on because they are judged to be of a higher status than women . If you ever notice since you first watched romance show, jerk .

Hence, men should never ever even try to ask OR think about getting money from a girl, E-S-P-E-C-I-A-L-L-Y after the relationship is broken . This clearly goes to show that which ever this man is, indeed is very not gentleman, no balls, which literally means no penis, and means you're not fit to be a man at all . You should go get your penis removed .

YOU ARE SHAMELESS, more than TWO YEARS of relationship, time and effort wasted on you, and your reaction have shown to treat it like nothing happened ? Two words - total failure . People don't need to say, all they need is what they see . Boy oh boy, now that you don't have a 'girlfriend' to be with, you can go back to what you used to do, always is doing, and i doubt things will change - go now, go back to mommy . But hey, you're 22 years old this year right ? Yeah, one year older than my sister . . . yeah, i should be right . Okay, hush, go back to mommy .

Maybe you shouldn't get a girlfriend, you should just date your mother, wait till your dad is at work then fuck her . Then you won't have a problem dealing with your mom who always call you on the phone as and when she likes asking some stupid questions interrupting dates, you ever know that ?

I won't attack you when i see you, because that's gonna leave a bad impression about me . All i'm saying here is exactly what i think . Oh, maybe i missed out one thing - if law allows females to revenge on males, I WILL BE THE FIRST TO KICK YOUR PENIS . Oh and i make 100% sure you next father's day is in hell, when you have a fake one and it still works in your dreams .

Yeah . So fuck off to your mother, mommy's boy .

Bye and never see you again .

Today is the 5th June 2009 .

Wentta the gym today with Nathan, Shirley and Khng at Martin's condominium. Walked 1.71km at 6km/hr non-stop . This is the first time ever i exercise on my own accounts after i graduated from secondary school . One sentence to describe : -

My bones are cracking . Yeah .

Congratulations Chantel, you burnt over 30 calories and gained them back right after . Haha, after i exercised for around 2 hours . We went back to Martin's place and cooked . They had tom yam soup, but i thought since i don't eat hot stuffs, i had eggs . I cooked scambled eggs, but the destroying factor was my scambled eggs was cooked outta 10 eggs and 5 slices of cheese . And i had them all to myself, bon appetite, some went to the rest because their forks came into my plate occasionally when i was eating . Haha . Yeah, i had 10 eggs at one shot .

Let me rest, blog again soon .

Bon nuitt .